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I look at all the posts about leaving 4H and ROD goodbyes and I feel so numb. I've spent a big part of the time worrying about other's judgement, about results and studies, about being the perfect daughter, that I've completely forgotten about listening to others. Now that time is running short and there's no repeat, I regret.

I regret not having been a better friend, a better platoon mate or a better specialist.

I wish I could have been better.

AM VERY GUAIZ ONE OK~

IT'S 3.20PM AND I'M ALR HOME.

Been surfing the web and found many interesting (which includes reactions of shock, surprise, mockery, embarrassed and funny).

1. Yogurt 的中文名字是“酸奶”。bee_living

I NEVER KNEW OK. Either way, dont you think it sounds strange and funny at the same time? Imagine going into a convenience store and asking for “酸奶”。I dont have a discrimination against chinese words but this... is just weird.

2. "有人看到我，一眼就看得出， 我不是本地人，问说：“是新加坡人还是马来西亚人吧？”。
我很惊讶，我已经尽量掩饰口音上的不同，也不多话。
我笑问，是怎么被发现的？
她说：“因为中国人比较好看。”" bee_living

I guess I can count with my hands the number of people who agree with this statement! Maybe they're pretty (since the paragraph continues to speak of their lovely skin) but under my definition of beauty, the number of China citizens who are considered pretty are not much. However, those who have exercised considerable courage, determination, emotional resilience, friendliness and respect are definitely present.

There is no discrimination of nationality intended. It's purely an innocent and restricted judgement on my part.

3. "I HOPE EVERYONE OF YOU SCORE BADLY TOO!!!!
Just like how I hope everybody would become fat pigs so I would be the only non-obese one,
which makes me slim due to perception change!
HOHO.
Wouldn't it be nice?
Call me a selfish bitch (like Daryl always does) or whatever,
but don't you secretly feel this way toooooo?
search your inner self -
reach deeeeeeep into your bloody heart with those dirty, unmanicured fingers.
c'mon, yknw you're on my side!"

-Daphne

No it wont be nice and I definitely do not think that wn if I reach deep into my bloody heart). Hoping people are stupid wont make you any smarter. Such a sweeping and perception-based statement makes you sound juvenile and ridiculous. So, my response is: Dont be lame. You're not cute.

4. I JUST COULDNT HELP IT.

I hardly see someone so OK with being so bitchy.

Some people just dont consider that people find them sexy because they reveal too much.

5. Tuition teacher (TT); me

TT: So, how was your results?

me: ok loh. I failed my chinese.

TT: haiz, how about your math?

me: A1

TT: yeah this paper seemed easy; my other student also got A1.

how about your sciences?

me: I got B3 for chem.

TT: huh so bad?

me: uhhhhhh.. yeah.

(Y)(Y)(Y)

To begin with, that was my brother's tuition teacher.

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I keep forgetting that exams are over and holidays are coming~

"my future is undefined"

Danielle Kiemel

She's chronically ill and has to undergo treatment daily, which causes her pain. However, she's really cool! She takes a picture of her life everyday and post them on her blog because to her, "every moment is precious". A few days ago, it struck me that we're all going to die (not talking about 2012) someway or another. Like Danielle's, all our futures are undefined. We just never really know the limitations of time before death is imminent. The funniest thing is that we know that we're flawed this way but none of us know it enough to change.

I have been sleeping past 11pm lately; such a horrid habit I'm cultivating. To be really fair, I've been up preparing ROD presents, Delta presents and 4H farewell presents OK. I'm planning to get something really simple yet sincere! Heh.

To NCC09: Thanks like mad for all your lovely presents! They were really creative and majorly cute. I like the way y'll sort of standardised all the presents (they look similiar).

To Charlie09: ROD was amazing! Good job xmuch! The MCs were gaying with each other on stage loh~ But I like the partB dance+scare Qixin+dinner a lot!

To Delta09: Needless to say further, y'll are love forever.

To Bravo09: Continue to shine ok! I'm sure you'd have great loads of fun from the time we step down to the time y'll prepare for spec course and finally to the time y'll ROD. It's going to be an amazing experience (one in a million) and those who'd matter the most in your NCC life are the ones right beside you now- your platoon mates! So treasure whatever time y'll have and continue to be shooting stars.