Cariokay

Story of Stuffs

2010-04-23T23:17:00.000-07:00

"Our enormously productive economy... demands that we make consumption our way of life, that we convert the buying and use of goods into rituals, that we seek our spiritual satisfaction, our ego satisfaction, in consumption... we need things consumed, burned up, replaced and discarded at an ever-accelerating rate"

"99% of the things we buy is thrashed within 6 months of purchase... Today, we consume twice as much as a decade ago."

"1/3 of our natural resources are gone... 40% of our water ways are undrinkable... 80% of our natural forest have collapsed... At Amazon, 2000 trees are cut down in a minute..."

Deluded and selfish.

"100000 synthetic chemicals are used and 1/2 are not tested."

"Toxic chemicals such as Brominated Flame Retardants (BFR) are used in appliances, pillows et cetera as it prevent fire."

Wastage and exploitation of Earth serves as a double-edged sword. As we harm our environment with our , passionate consumption patterns, we are feeding the system that ultimately harms our health, physically and mentally, and erodes the ecosystem specifically designed for us to live in.

Yet we go ahead with the consumption, neglect investment into better transportation, better education and more. Why? Because of perceived obsolences and planned obsolences. Producers design and plan to have products made in such a way that things can get chucked and made useless in as short a time as possible. Then the media consistently pounds on us the recurring message that what we have now is not good, not enough and it's going to be disgusting to be caught not following up with the trend. At the end of it all, the solution to this perceived problem is shopping. So we continue to shop, work, shop, consume and allow this unworkable system to grow.

For more details on what you can do and research on this topic, visit: Story of Stuffs Project

2010-04-09T06:30:00.001-07:00

Check out peace.facebook.com

There includes a longer list of companies or individuals working under the same project for the same cause- to advocate and take actions to work towards peace in the world.

WALMART (listed as an innovative company)

2010-04-09T05:49:00.000-07:00

GOAL
October 2005: Then-CEO Lee Scott announces ambitious goals: create zero waste, use only renewable energy, and sell products that sustain the environment.

Reusable Bags
September 2008: Commits to reduce its global plastic shopping-bag waste by 33% over five years (that's 9 billion bags). The next month, it introduces a 50-cent reusable shopping bag in U.S. stores. By the end of the first year, it had used 2.5 billion fewer bags.

Greener Lightbulbs
August 2006: Aims to sell 100 million compact fluorescent lightbulbs in 12 months. Despite the higher price tag, it sells 137 million CFLs, which use 75% less energy than incandescents.

Read more at: Fast Company: Walmart #9

The coolest part about all these is that these are actions WE as ordinary humans can take. We may not have enough money to install solar panels but we certainly can spare 50cents to invest in a reusable bag.

So we should follow the lead of big companies such as these in cultivating greener habits.

Autistic Kids

2010-04-03T08:40:00.000-07:00

Hello!

Firstly, sorry for the terrible and inexcusable lack of updates! School's been so taxing these days that (although it's really just an excuse) I haven't been able to scamper through the webpages of the infinitely expansive pool of information the internet has to offer to find volunteering opportunities and anything else related to the community and servicing.

Secondly, today I attended Raffles Girl's Secondary School's (RGS) concert, which is a Service Learning (SL) project by Team Awesome. It's to raise awareness on Autistic patients. A section of the concert consisted of a short lecture by Serene, a spokesperson from St. Andrew's Autism Centre. She mentioned a few facts that hit me hard and left an impression.

1. Autism cannot be cured and there are no known causes of it.

2. 1 in 190 Singaporeans are hit with Autism and males outnumber females by 4:1.

3. Autism patients with mental retardation and IQ of less than 50 will need instituitional care for the rest of their lives.

4. Autism patients have sensitive sensory skills. For example, the whirring of the fan or the simple tapping of our fingers on the keyboard will result in a amplified sound ringing at their ear, which then impairs their learning capabilities.

5. Autism patients go after a routined life as they lead an unpredictable life. As a result, they seem to be exceptionally neat as they close windows or push in chairs after use.

After the concert, I am compelled to extend my services to them. A primary motivation is that stuffs that are mandatory or simple to us could be an impossible feat to them. We're too satisfied with our current lifestyle and take many things for granted.

Quoting a member of Team Awesome, "I enjoy the little things the most. Enjoy everything, including homework."

If you'd like to help them, you can start with St Andrew's Autism Centre.

http://www.sach.org.sg/

They welcome volunteers.

TRAVEL GREEN

2010-04-03T08:27:00.000-07:00

Woodland attractions make it onto the Green Travel List

The world's only energy-saving roller-coaster at GreenWoods

Two Gwynedd attractions have been named among the 'greenest' places to visit in the world.

GreenWood Forest Park, Felinheli, and Coed-y-Brenin visitor centre, Dolgellau, made it on to the Green Travel List alongside enterprises in Ibiza, Ethiopia and New Zealand which all have one thing in common, their enthusiasm for environmentally-sustainable tourism.

"The aim is to help travellers find a greener holiday," said Richard Hammond of greentraveller.co.uk.

He explained that the recently published list does not single out individual winners: "Instead the idea is to provide a comprehensive list of a wide range of travel and tourism companies who have convinced us that sustainability is at the heart of their business."

Stephen Bristow, owner of the GreenWood Forest Park, has had his business's carbon footprint in mind since the 1990s when constructing their main building out of locally-sourced green oak.

He's also a firm believer in the visitors using their own energy to power the park, as they do on the people-powered roller-coaster.

"It's the only one in the world that generates more power than it uses," said Stephen of the ride, which uses a combination of funicular-railway technology and gravity to get up some speed.

Creating such a masterpiece in the middle of a forest was no mean achievement

John Taylor, Coed y Brenin Visitor Centre

"The visitors walk up a hill, get in a cabin on rails where their weight drives them down and in turn, pulls the coaster cars up the hill.

"So they walk back up the hill to get in the coaster cars and we give them a push. It may sound complicated, but it only takes four minutes and works really well."

The park also uses recycled slate on the paths and rainwater to flush the toilets. But Stephen always thinks they could do better.

"There are always things we should be doing," he admitted.

"The kitchen waste goes to landfill because of the rules and regulations. You can only get past them by buying a very expensive machine.

"And we often have one-off environmental costs when we install things. The new play barn has a lot of plastic in it, but the equipment has a long lifespan, so the environmental cost is spread over ten years.

Locally-sourced food is used in the centre's cafe

"But we would be interested in generating our own electricity."

Locally-sourced wood was also used to build Coed y Brenin's visitor centre in a bid to blend into the environment, have low visual impact and be based on a footprint that would be as small as possible.

Heated by a woodchip boiler, the centre gets all its water from its very own borehole and recycles all waste by way of a peat bio-filter system.

Forestry Commission Wales recreation manager John Taylor, who looks after the centre, said: "The sustainability of the centre and its low carbon footprint was uppermost in our minds when we designed the building.

"Creating such a masterpiece in the middle of a forest was no mean achievement and we are absolutely thrilled that our efforts have been recognised by inclusion in the Green Travel List."

BBC: North West Walls

Page last updated at 14:28 GMT, Thursday, 1 April 2010 15:28 UK

http://news.bbc.co.uk/local/northwestwales/hi/people_and_places/nature/newsid_8599000/8599118.stm

Local enterprises you should support! : )

2010-01-30T23:54:00.000-08:00

Taken and summarised from Urban 29/1/2010
There are more junking, donating and recycling opportunities on the newspaper itself.
Read for more information.

Clothes and bags

Minds Good As New Charity Shop
800 Margaret Drive, tel: 64741043

What: This charity shop, which supports the Movement for the Intellectually Disabled of Singapore, accepts unwanted lightly worn clothing, jewellery, bags and shoes. The money raised is used to fund Mind's projects.

Requirements: Items should not be too big or bulky and should be in a decent condition. Rejected items are given to the rag-and-bone man.

How: The shop is open only on Tuesdays and Thursdays, 10.30am to 3pm, but clothings can be deposited in the donation box outside the store anytime.

Blessings in A Bag
Comics Mart, 02-05 Serene Centre, tel: 64664213 (11am to 8pm daily)
Scape Youth Centre lobby, 113 Somerset Road, tel: 67354144 (10am to 10pm from Tuesday to Sunday)
Email: blessingsinabag@gmail.com,
www.blessingsinabag.org

What: A local non-profit organisation founded in 2007 by 987FM DJ Emily Teng, 23. Donated new or used children's and adult clothing- and also blankets, first aid kits and toys- are sent to the needy in Asia including Cambodia, Indonesia and the Phillipines.

Requirements: Will take all clothings but ask yourself first if you would wear the item yourself or give it to your own child or a friend to wear.

How: Drop off the items at the venues stated above. Timings available are listed in brackets.

New2U
Singapore Council of Women's Organisations Centre
96 Waterloo Street, New2U Shop
tel: 68370611
www.scwo.org.sg

What: Run by volunteers, this thrift shop set up in 2000 sells pre-loved cl;othing to raise money for Star Shelter, a refuge for abused women and children.

Requirements: When dropping them off, mark the items "Donation for New2U". Items must be of clean and wearable conditions.

How: Drop the items off at SCWO lobby between 9am and 6pm, Mondays to Fridays

Books and magazines
http://www.recyclingpoint.com.sg/
2 Kallang Ave, 08-12 Kallang Bahru Complex
tel: 62935250
email: enquiry@recyclingpoint.com.sg

What: This 19-year-old company offers regular collection of recyclable materials such as waste paper and books from both homes and offices.

How: THOSE WITH LARGE QUANTITIES OF PAPER PRODUCTS (BIG STASH OF OLD BOOKS AND MAGAZINES) can buy a white recycling bin from the firm for $75. These will be collected weekly, fortnightly or monthly, depending on the amount of recyclable material generated in the area.

*This service is not available to those living is HDB flats but the company offers free pick-up service to any household that accumulates at least 100kg of paper.

NLB
Library Supply Centre, 3 Changi South Street 2,
Level 2 Xilin Districentre Building B,
tel: 65467275
email: gifts_exchange@nlb.gov.sg

Requirements: It is particularly interested in materials on Singapore and South-east Asia. Fiction titles are generally not accepted except those on Singapore or by Singaporean Authors. For a full list of guidelines on NLB's selection policy, log on to http://www.nl.sg/

How: Log on to http://www.deposit.nl.sg/ and submit a list of titles you wish to donate on the "donate from public" page, together with your particulars. Post or drop off books at the Library Supply Centre. It provides a free pick-up service for those who are donating 100 or more books.

Fei Yue Family Service Centre
tel' 64142162
email: fsccck@fycs.org

What: The organisation was founded by the Chinese Christian Mission in 1991 and currently has 10 brances that provide a range of services, including family counselling, elderly care and childcare programmes.

Requirements: The books should be in usable condition and the organisation has asked for books suitable for children aged two to six for its Early Intervention Programmes for Childcare and Infants (EIPIC) (For more information: http://www.fycs.org/index.cfm?GPID=109)

How: Donors should drop their books off a the EIPIC Centre at Block 101 Jurong East Street 13, 01-188. The Centre operates from 8am to 5.30pm.

2009-12-16T23:09:00.000-08:00

Safia (38) is from Adamitullu Jiddo Kombolcha district in Ethiopia. A combination of environmental degradation, prolonged drought and bursts of heavy rain has decimated her herd of cattle and her crops. Safia has been forced to sell off some land to put food on the table and has had to send some of her children to live with relatives elsewhere. The destruction of her family has been particularly devastating for her. Safia is a community activist who has been in promoting tree planting as a way to preserve the soils and has given testimony at a local climate hearing.

GIVES PEOPLE HOPE

Sometimes, it makes me think. If these people are going beyond conventional behaviour to fight for their survival, why should we give up so easily?

2009-11-26T01:36:00.001-08:00

Check out Unfoundation for posts regarding what people will miss most if the world ends.

cariokay.tumblr.com

2009-11-01T17:45:00.000-08:00

I'm going to use Tumblr for future blog postings and Blogger for postings about volunteer work. :)

Where's my map?

2009-10-28T01:54:00.000-07:00

I look at all the posts about leaving 4H and ROD goodbyes and I feel so numb. I've spent a big part of the time worrying about other's judgement, about results and studies, about being the perfect daughter, that I've completely forgotten about listening to others. Now that time is running short and there's no repeat, I regret.

I regret not having been a better friend, a better platoon mate or a better specialist.

I wish I could have been better.

SHINGZ

2009-10-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

AM VERY GUAIZ ONE OK~

IT'S 3.20PM AND I'M ALR HOME.

Been surfing the web and found many interesting (which includes reactions of shock, surprise, mockery, embarrassed and funny).

1. Yogurt 的中文名字是“酸奶”。bee_living

I NEVER KNEW OK. Either way, dont you think it sounds strange and funny at the same time? Imagine going into a convenience store and asking for “酸奶”。I dont have a discrimination against chinese words but this... is just weird.

2. "有人看到我，一眼就看得出，我不是本地人，问说：“是新加坡人还是马来西亚人吧？”。
我很惊讶，我已经尽量掩饰口音上的不同，也不多话。
我笑问，是怎么被发现的？
她说：“因为中国人比较好看。”" bee_living

I guess I can count with my hands the number of people who agree with this statement! Maybe they're pretty (since the paragraph continues to speak of their lovely skin) but under my definition of beauty, the number of China citizens who are considered pretty are not much. However, those who have exercised considerable courage, determination, emotional resilience, friendliness and respect are definitely present.

There is no discrimination of nationality intended. It's purely an innocent and restricted judgement on my part.

3. "I HOPE EVERYONE OF YOU SCORE BADLY TOO!!!!
Just like how I hope everybody would become fat pigs so I would be the only non-obese one,
which makes me slim due to perception change!
HOHO.
Wouldn't it be nice?
Call me a selfish bitch (like Daryl always does) or whatever,
but don't you secretly feel this way toooooo?
search your inner self -
reach deeeeeeep into your bloody heart with those dirty, unmanicured fingers.
c'mon, yknw you're on my side!"

-Daphne

No it wont be nice and I definitely do not think that wn if I reach deep into my bloody heart). Hoping people are stupid wont make you any smarter. Such a sweeping and perception-based statement makes you sound juvenile and ridiculous. So, my response is: Dont be lame. You're not cute.

4. I JUST COULDNT HELP IT.

I hardly see someone so OK with being so bitchy.

Some people just dont consider that people find them sexy because they reveal too much.

5. Tuition teacher (TT); me

TT: So, how was your results?

me: ok loh. I failed my chinese.

TT: haiz, how about your math?

me: A1

TT: yeah this paper seemed easy; my other student also got A1.

how about your sciences?

me: I got B3 for chem.

TT: huh so bad?

me: uhhhhhh.. yeah.

(Y)(Y)(Y)

To begin with, that was my brother's tuition teacher.

***

I keep forgetting that exams are over and holidays are coming~

Live like we're dying- Kris Allen (Y) (Y) (Y)

2009-10-26T06:13:00.000-07:00

"my future is undefined"

Danielle Kiemel

She's chronically ill and has to undergo treatment daily, which causes her pain. However, she's really cool! She takes a picture of her life everyday and post them on her blog because to her, "every moment is precious". A few days ago, it struck me that we're all going to die (not talking about 2012) someway or another. Like Danielle's, all our futures are undefined. We just never really know the limitations of time before death is imminent. The funniest thing is that we know that we're flawed this way but none of us know it enough to change.

Superman doesnt rescue us from the pain within ourselves

2009-10-25T07:37:00.000-07:00

I have been sleeping past 11pm lately; such a horrid habit I'm cultivating. To be really fair, I've been up preparing ROD presents, Delta presents and 4H farewell presents OK. I'm planning to get something really simple yet sincere! Heh.

To NCC09: Thanks like mad for all your lovely presents! They were really creative and majorly cute. I like the way y'll sort of standardised all the presents (they look similiar).

To Charlie09: ROD was amazing! Good job xmuch! The MCs were gaying with each other on stage loh~ But I like the partB dance+scare Qixin+dinner a lot!

To Delta09: Needless to say further, y'll are love forever.

To Bravo09: Continue to shine ok! I'm sure you'd have great loads of fun from the time we step down to the time y'll prepare for spec course and finally to the time y'll ROD. It's going to be an amazing experience (one in a million) and those who'd matter the most in your NCC life are the ones right beside you now- your platoon mates! So treasure whatever time y'll have and continue to be shooting stars.

on my mind like an ipod on replay

2009-10-20T06:01:00.000-07:00

I LOOK DAMN DISGUSTING BUT SHUWEI LOOKS DARMNED CUTE HERE DONT YOU THINK DONT YOU THINK?! :D

Was at Feei's house all Monday preparing company's ROD present. (Y)

1. been angsty. ):

2. hate my results.

3. hate myself for being so hopelessly pampered. I'm afraid of the dark and too lazy to take public transport.

4. disgusted by blinded people

5. find it unfair how people who spend time oogling over their new infatuations can get better results than those that studied

Look at archives for other posts! :)

2009-10-17T03:35:00.000-07:00

Breakeven- The Script (Y)

Replay- IYAZ (Y)(Y)

Feel like an old woman

2009-10-17T02:40:00.001-07:00

I dont mean it in a literal sense.

I dont feel like I'm pale and wrinkly; or sick and weak. I dont feel experienced and wise. I dont think I've an old hubby or a family of kids. I dont think I'm at ease with myself and assured of my identity.

I feel trapped.

There's a million things I want to say or do but I never do so because of decorum.

We're told not to let ourselves lose too much. We're told to maintain our image. We're told to get the best in everything. We're told to make ourselves look slim and pretty. We're told to adhere to convention. We're told of how to exist, not how to live.

WHO DECIDED WHAT'S DECORUM ANYW? It doesnt make sense. We keep wanting to please others but what for? For friends? If they're defining who you should be, they're not really your friends I believe. For more money, better career, bigger house, faster car, more modern technology and more more? That's compromising your beliefs and opinions for stuffs that often deemed as morally unimportant. Then what for?

I was just reading Valerie's blog and I realise how much we have to hide. I realise everyone, including myself stick to convention. I try not to make mistakes, try not to waste my life away. I became obsessed with doing The Good. I realise I'm probably better but not happier.

I often get upset that I cannot say or do whatever I like and whenever I like without disturbing the balance of the decorum. Then I realise there are deeper reasons for not doing certain things. It may be sympathy, may be care or may be love. It could be a form of gratitude, it could be an act of kindness or an extension of compassion.

It's like how I dont tell my classmate that I dislike the way she's obsessed with competition, determined to win and gain attention. She disgusts me with her incessant behaviours of acting cute, following trends and short-termed crazes for different Japanese guys. And I never tell her that in her face because she's always had friendship issues, have been mistreated during her school days and have always been kind to me.

So, life's a roller coaster. It's filled with ups and downs. Yet, it's also an escalator. It's about moving upwards and forwards. Following decorum, I think, leads you downwards and backwards. It moulds you into a socially accepted person but it doesnt make you happier. So, it's probably only a matter of directions but your life story depends on it.

making fun count

2009-10-15T07:56:00.000-07:00

Holiday treaties:

1. Complete 50 books challenge on Facebook.

2. Learn roller blading

3. MORE TENNIS GAMES!

4. Redesign my blog, fb and twitter pages

5. Get an A in O levels chinese

6. Go go go shopping with Delta; outing with Disco; bbq with 4H

7. Do lots of CIP! (A)

To Delta, BFFs, 4H, LBBS and friends:

2009-10-15T01:21:00.000-07:00

I believe everyone in your life changes you in someway or the other.

They've made my life more beautiful.

LBBS

4H

Delta

Tennis

the gathering of all my fav people! :)

THANKS ALL I REALLY HAD AN AWESOME TIME~

Received this cool present from LBBS.

Loved the quotes inside, esp this one:

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat,
known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the
depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity and an understanding
of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness and deep-loving concern."
-Elizabeth Kubler

Beautiful people dont just happen.

I get extremely touched by those who have known me, understood me and cared for me just the way I am. There's really no need for those who want to bask in your popularity, in your glory or feed on your latest scandal. (I'm not saying that those have happened to me because I've never agreed that I'm an embodiment for the above few. If I've ever been any of them, it doesnt gratify me.)

So to Delta, BFFs, 4H, LBBS and friends:

y'll are the best ok! ;D

Anyone wants to play tennis? :D

2009-10-08T22:43:00.000-07:00

After eoys and mmm, the euphoria hasnt sanked in. So far, I've surfed twitter and facebook, added multiple new friends like What The Flea, read the new Sophie Kinsella book I got (Twenties Girl from Lokhang, thanks like mad!), thought over how I'm going to spend the following days, chatted about psychology, surfed Inhabitant and youth.sg.

Check out these stuffs you can do for disaster relief victims! (they always sound so distant)

(taken from: www.youth.sg)

World Vision SingaporeWorld Vision Singapore is currently involved in relief works for Typhoon Morakot, Typhoon Ketsana (Ondoy) as well as the Sumatra quake, and is working on raising $6.58 million, US$2.5 million and US$2 million respectively for each cause.To contribute to the causes, go to World Vision Singapore’s website to donate to Typhoon Morakot, Typhoon Ketsana and the Sumatra quake.

Mercy Relief
Mercy Relief is currently collecting donations to go to the victims of Typhoon Ketsana and the Sumatra quake.

If you want to help, donations can be made in the form of cheques made to Mercy Relief (with “South Pacific Tropical Storm” or “Sumatra Quake Relief” written behind and sent to 160 Lorong 1 Toa Payoh #01-1568 Singapore 310160) and cash delivered at the same address, ATM transfer, credit card payments as well as through telephone at 1900 112 1010 for a $10 donation, and 1900 112 1050 for a $50 donation.

More details are available at www.mercyrelief.org.

Singapore Red Cross
The Singapore Red Cross (SRC) is appealing for donations to victims of Typhoon Ketsana in the Philippines until Oct 30. Walk-in donations can be made at the Red Cross House at 15 Penang Lane, or by cheque (to Singapore Red Cross Society) and by wireless bank transfer.

For more details, visit SRC’s website here.

SRC is also organising a charity screening of Haeundae - The Deadly Tsunami on Deepavali (Oct 17), 7.15pm at The Cathay. Tickets are $15 including GST, and proceeds go to victims of Typhoon Ketsana as well.

Get tickets at www.cathay.com.sg, from any Cathay cineplex or through phone booking at 6235 1155.

Straight to the Philippines
With a significant number of Filipinos in Singapore, naturally they would do something to aid their loved ones back home, many of whom have been affected. In the process, they are mobilising Singaporeans as well to contribute in various ways through enterprises that have started up here to help Filipinos ship goods home.

The Filipino Association in Singapore (FAS) is collecting donations at the following address:

A-Freight Cargo
304 Orchard Road
#03-19 Lucky Plaza

In addition, i-Remit Singapore will waive remittance charges for donations to the Philippine National Red Cross. Remittances to the Philippine National Red Cross may be sent through:

i-Remit Singapore304 Orchard Road#03-69 Lucky PlazaAnother remittance company, LBC will waive remittance charges for donations made to ABS-CBN Foundation, GMA Foundation, Philippine National Red Cross, and the National Disaster Coordinating Center. Remittances to these organisations may be sent through: LBC Singapore304 Orchard Road#04-77 Lucky Plaza

check yes juliet!

2009-10-05T21:04:00.000-07:00

Shermaine's 12th Birthday.
(L)

I feel seriously overwhelmed by what I have not done, what I cannot do or what I do not know how to do/what to do. ):

So these days, I've been:

1. wishing I had a smooth sailing life- free of sadness, fears and troubles.

2. imaging how I'm going to spend my holidays

3. thinking bad stuffs will happen to me

And I thought I can never finish planning for anything or complete everything I need to do in the world. There's a difference between living with no regrets and achieving The Ultimate Success. To me, having no regrets just means living in the moment, letting whatever emotions that come along with it simmer within you and truly appreciate whatever you have.

To make up for all the time lost in wallowing, I decided to do something that will make me happy!

DELTA 09 P2BS ACM June 2009 with Shirleen and Qiaowei

4H 09

Pulau Semakau field trip.

Cling Launch

Deltas who went.

"Most people worry about the next moment, the tomorrow and in the welter of it all, they forget about living."

The planet earth turns slowly.

2009-10-02T06:49:00.000-07:00

The website which I got this is so paradoxical to our current situation. With the exams already starting, there's no way we can break our routine of waking up, mugging, eat, mugging, eat, mugging, sleep unless we are already prepared for the exams or prepared to see ourselves fail. :(

10.10.2010

2009-09-29T21:39:00.000-07:00

Looking into the future is good, hahahahaha cant wait for this date!! ;D

For this year's birthday, I'm surprised at how little I've thought about it. Usually I'd have a really long birthday list that was initiated during the start of the year, but now, at present I can only think of ONE thing that I'd really want on my birthday.

It's to really be able to give my best shot during the EOYS and then have loads of fun afterwards! heh. :D

Current birthday list:

1. Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella

2. Justin Bieber's MCD

3. Chance to meet Muttons to Midnight from 987

Justin Bieber is really good and really good looking. hehe xp seriously, he's freaking cute OK!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kNo7liXs79s

LOVE HIS VID ONE TIME

Just created a new facebook group called "Singaporeans (L) Standard English". mmmm, makes me sounds extremely weird but I think it's kind of cool xp. Do support and join ok~~

Went to school today to look for physics and chemistry teacher. Physics teacher turned out to be sick and on MC. ): Chemistry teacher was quite helpful. Math teacher down with eye infection; hope she recovers soon enough for our meeting tmrw. :X

If you're bored with EOY revision, check out www.fmylife.com and www.mylifeisaverage.com. They have some of the wackiest stories! Like:

Today, I was at lunch with my girlfriend. The waitress came up and asked for her number, then asked if she had a significant other. I laughed as my girlfriend gave the waitress her number. They're going on a date, tonight. FML

Or, you can choose to watch justin bieber's cool videos on youtube.

one step at the time?

2009-09-28T01:44:00.000-07:00

What if i have no more time?!

FYI, EOYS start this thursday!

I have yet to complete my SCS revision, my history revision, organic chem (which looks so terrifically boring), waves, light and my math worksheets. So much for thinking I still have loads of time more to go!

got to get back to organic chem now.

my post is so short these days, I might as well concentrate on my twitter.

Small elephants, big ants

2009-09-27T08:04:00.000-07:00

Cant wait for EOYS to be over. I've already thought out a million things to do after 12th October. I want (all the more) to visit far east plaza and enter every shoplet! This includes OhsoFickle. Her initial intention was to earn additional pocket money and she ends up with a full-time job, coupled with a admirable salary. She earns an avg of $10000 a month; freaking awesome OK.

Recently, I've been:
-reading a lot of nytimes
-completed ONE math revision paper
-did MLC phy rev worksheets
-went through nearly all chem topics on the 10YS (MCQ only)
-tried reading more chinese articles (includ newspapers:O)
-found out about TED and have downloaded a few videos
-been twittering more often

sigh, am panicking for eoys already/again(?)
):
need a call for time-out.

FREAKING AWESOME!

2009-09-25T18:11:00.000-07:00

JUSTIN BIEBER
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0-qQdw7Xpv4

"as fit as a iron" -cute like madz

2009-09-22T03:38:00.000-07:00

Saw this on Op-Ed Columnist

Women are hormonally more complicated and biologically more vulnerable.
Women are much harder on themselves than men. They tend to attach to other
people more strongly, beat themselves up more when they lose attachments, take
things more personally at work and pop far more antidepressants.

Only the important people stay in your life.

2009-09-21T02:31:00.000-07:00

dont compare me to how i was back then. Wasted Tomorrow

Firstly, I'm not as impulsive as before and I make better decisions. So just because I made a mistake in my lower secondary days, I hope that I wouldnt be judged for what happened back then.

Secondly, I'm not as nice as before. I dont give a shit to people who treat me like one. I dont believe dressing better and having more people around you makes you cooler than anyone else in the school. For a start, the people around you may not even be your friend.

Thirdly, I used to think fashion magazines and blogshops selling standardised clothes were cool. I'd take hours sourcing for the cheapest and finding out I've no way to buy them. Now, I think nytimes.com, entrepeuner books, interesting quotes and selected articles are freaking awesome.

Fourth, I used to be really superficial. I'd thread around the edge, afraid of falling out the cycle of trends. Now, I dont give a shit if you think I'm a nerd, a no-lifer cos I guess even if you say that, I'd keep doing it. The only difference is whether I do it openly or behind your backs.

Fifth, this post has a reason. It is meant to display my displeasure but definitely, it is not directed at my friends. They are directed at the people who like talking behind people's backs, like gossiping, like some spice to their conversations and have no concerns about the feelings of others'.

EOY Resolution: Sleep before 10.30pm

2009-09-18T01:43:00.000-07:00

1. It is getting so difficult to stay awake in periodic times of the day. It's odd- I'd be incessantly high for a few hours then I'd start feeling too weary. It's like another form of moodswings.

2. Exams are drawing near; I feel like I can just die. Those cliches about, "dont worry, as long as you work hard, you'd get good results." I think they only work for some people. Some people just cannot study OK.

3. What if I get exam blues? What if I get blank minds? What if the paper is unpredictable and ends up unexpectedly difficult? What if I havent studied enough?!?! That's the worse part, knowing that you could have done better. Suckszxc like mad.

4. I'm supposed to be starting on my Lang Arts but I'm feeling sleepy (OH I KNOW WHY, I'M HUNGRY ):). I hope tonight I'd be able to stay alert till 9pm before I can feel good enough to sleep.

5. I hope tmrw doesnt rain so I get to play tennis like mad before I get to work on my math.

6. Cant wait for EOYS to end.

OK GOT TO WORK. BYEBYE!

P.S. LBBS MUG LIKE MADZ AND THEN WE'D BE FREE LIKE BIRDS~

P.P.S SHIRLEEN&QIAOWEI, DONT STRESS YOURSELF ALR LUH YOU SMARTASS.

Cooler than the flipside of your pillow

2009-09-11T05:16:00.000-07:00

I want to step into the silver screen when disney tales are playing and live a fairytale life. Where problems are always solved with smiles, where there are no bad hair days or ugly fashions, where you always say the right thing at the right time, where school dramas turn good and where everyth good will come out of everyth bad.

Dont let go of this moment.

2009-09-08T18:48:00.000-07:00

I found another awesome picture with a guy watching the clouds go by, but this seems more realistic. Really, it's not often we get to indulge in fairytales and perfect lives.

My holidays have so far been packed with Chemistry, a lot of worrying and guilty-breaks (times when I get hooked on the television or the new kid book I'm reading and end up slacking for an hour plus). Fortunately, it's just Wednesday and I still have time to change all these.

Found this cool quiz on Joycelin's blog.

TEN things about yourself:10 things about myself that people don’t know? Or what? Anyway, here goes:
1. I dread expectations the most, especially when it comes from my parents. Like if I dont live up to those expectations, I'm not their good daughter. So it really bugs me when I make mistakes.
2. I have a face full of pimples. Since year1, I've been trying to find the perfect formula which would give me norine's skin. Now I just hope puberty ends early.

3. I have everything I want (material-wise) and I agree I'm extremely pampered. Like, I take my parent's car for granted and I wont say I'm used to taking public transports. The only bus number I'm familiar with is 963, from my school.
4. Referring to no3, one of my wishes is to be able to take public transports to anywhere I want, with ease. I think it's really cool to be independent.

5. I love reading Seventeen magazines.

6. I do not watch drama serials because I cant afford to get addicted to it. So I read a lot instead. I like Reader's Digest, Sophie Kinsella's chick lits, Biographies by famous buisnessmen (like Donald Trump) and NYtimes (they are my new favourites)

7. I have a low self-esteem and even though I can be egotistic, it's really to assure myself.

8. I like volunteer work. Another of my wishes have been to engage in new experiences. I want to volunteer at SPCA, bird park, old folk's home and fundraising events etc.
9. I love rainbow colours. Stuffs that are colourful totally catches my attention.

10. My room is really really messy! When it's late and I dont feel like packing my table, I'd feel it disturbing to imagine what sort of bug could be residing under all the mess. (sidenote: I'm super paranoid)

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. I hope I can start to enjoy studying right now.

2. When my next issue of Seventeen will arrive
3. Worrying (random stuffs: whether I will be able to finish studying, whether I'm stupid, whether I'd get into trouble, whether I can be confident etc)
4. Rummaging through the drawers in my mind, searching for the correct quote to inspire or motivate me.
5. The world is going to end?
6. Am I good friend?
7. Now, I'm thinking why I'm so pessimistic and so degrading to myself, that I start to recall the quote I read earlier. The gist being, we get to hesitant with our time that we end up not really living at all.

FOUR things you do before you fall asleep:

1. Read a book

2. Play sudoku

3. Contemplate whether I should go online

4. Brush Teeth

FOUR things you see right now:

1. My new notebook (see, I told you I'm pampered)
2. My handphone
3. "Diary Of a Wimpy Kid"
4. A spongebob balloon stuck on my chair

THREE songs that you listen to often:
1. Daybreak- Marie Digby
2. Tongue Tied- Faber Drive

3. Moment of Truth- FM Static

TWO things you want to do before you die:

1. Start a diary
2. Adopt an animal

ONE confession:1. I’m not as innocent as you think I’m.

(This is a direct quoting from Joycelin's answer but it's relevant)

Since there is no other moment like this, 'for the time being' is all the time there is

2009-09-04T08:44:00.000-07:00

"I find it impressive how thoroughly normal it is be so tentative about the time of our lives, or so asleep within it, that we miss it entirely." -quoted from Happydays Blog

Shit happens in life and it's impossible to have things work out all the time. There will obviously be discomfort and sadness, but all that matters is how willing we are to embrace it and make the best out of it. It's part of our life anyw.

EOYS are coming in 3 weeks time. ):

am very very stressed but I can only study harder than ever and let the results speak for themselves yes?

EVERYBODY ELSE: JIAYOU TTM TOO! ;D

iintrox pl0x?

2009-09-01T05:29:00.001-07:00

imma fan of marie digby! ;D[edited: 0209]hate to tell my dad my results.still dont know how to.

Been so long since.

2009-09-01T02:21:00.000-07:00

I think my platoon mate is angry with me. I guess even without the names and obvious hints, we all know who I'm talking about. We're getting too good at guessing, too good at knowing- too good for our own good. Still, despite everyth "wrong" (as in my perspective) she could have done and I'm angry/unhappy/bitchy about it, platoon mates happen only once. We'd be over after ROD and even if we do fall out, I'd rather we fall out for the right reasons than it to be because we second-guessed each other and never dared to ask for the truth.

Just so you know, I was never talking about you when I mentioned how I couldnt stand people with buns, it was just a random comment directed at those girls in general. So, I hope the unfriendliness will stop.

I keep worrying that something bad is going to happen and I start to live my life in worry, paranoia and distraction AGAIN. Today, it's different. Maybe it's only because I'm tired of being frustrated and lost, so tired that I'm alright with losing alr. It's been so long since I felt so relieved.

The thing about paranoia, it makes you consider all situtations that are going to happen. When you do the math, you realise, it's really not going to be that bad. And it's all in the head.

I think I pissed my coach big time for being such a grouch during tennis when I miss the ball, cant serve etc. I guess I'm competitive. Looking at people who had tons more practices and much more practices makes me want to compare myself with them. When I lose, I get upset.

Today's been a painful (i.e cramp-y) day, with much hot packs and lazing away. I tried to study acids bases salts, metals and finish all phy EOY papers with 100% concentration. grr, did not succeed. but now, it's about positive thinking, enthusiasm and a lot of motivations.

EOYS are coming.

keep going, y'll.

the regret is not worth it.

P.S. Qiaowei's blog has an awesome quote! "Even heros have the right to bleed." We're all heros, we're all allowed to make mistakes, get upset and have bad hair days.

what thing happened?

2009-08-26T07:42:00.000-07:00

Went for SL briefing today. The briefing was conducted in a really boring manner- no slides, empowering quotes etc. Yet it really inspired me to commit my time and effort, even though the subject of concern was the COMMITTMENT required.

Actually I'm not v happy/upset/pissed off with a few people today but I kind of dont know how I'm going to present it. I'm sorry I just cannot stand people with very lian hairstyles and a fetish for attracting attention. Speaking of which, a number of Y4 girls had a sudden liking for high bun hair. It looks comparatively ok on some, on others, like very_b it looks unpleasant.

[edited: fabulous mood]

JUST GOT THE MARIE DIGBY SONGS FROM JOLENE!

HAPPY LIKE MAD!!

Am so inspired to start a rubbish collection at my doorstep

2009-08-22T22:38:00.001-07:00

I've been living in a world where everyth is taken for granted. I mean, I complain about laptops being too slow when some people do not even have internet access. There are so many plastic bottles that could be recycled but are thrown away because we're just too lazy to know where to recycle them.

WE NEED TO DO BETTER.

weekends are meant to be fun.

2009-08-22T19:31:00.000-07:00

where's the fun in weekends when students these days have their weekends as a bonus day given for more assessment books, more tuitions, more enrichment activities and more?

fingers breakdance.
it's extremely cute okok!!

The best of Julian Beever

Street Art with ABOVE

the different colours and designs of arrows are v v cool. ;D

Banksy

it can be rather creepy and offensive; all the same, it's has some extremely unique art pieces.

During the weekends, when there's a rare free time to breathe, you can visit shifthappens.wikispaces.com to learn more about education in the 21st century.

"we cant solve problems by using the same kind of technology we use to create them." -Albert Einstein, extracted from the video (Did You Know? 2.0)

If it's not really fun to you, hahahahhahahaha I cant help it xp!

I believe in Tomorrow. :D

2009-08-21T05:36:00.000-07:00

I think I screwed up my chem prac test, my chinese test that's suposed to redeem my results, my tennis, my SCS (i cant even catch what the teacher is rambling about) and so on. So this week's kind of really sucky and I find it difficult to even look forward to things. Hope tomorrow's a brighter day and all.

It's really sad when I realise all we've been through doesnt match up with those who've been friends with you for no more than a year. I use to exhaust my time and energy, thinking of ways to draw you back. Now, it seems really worthless because you probably do not deserve all the friendships you get.

History essay+SCS essay=I can just die. ):

2009-08-16T04:39:00.000-07:00

Actually, I'm v proud of myself for finishing two seemingly v long essays. (Y) although it ate up my entire afternoon and nearly killed me, I survived. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Plus, I received my Sept Seventeen issue today; AM HAPPY LIKE CRAZY! Have been waiting for it since... 2 weeks ago? I'm addicted I guess. :O

Saturday=tennis and expensive lunch. We celebrated Ben's birthday yesterday and it was cool. I've always wondered how a teenage boy celebrates his birthday; we cant expect party streamers, cartoon cake and an interesting game of catch yes? So Ben got a lovely ice cream cake with dry ice surrounding it (super romantic right? plus the lightings were switched off can.), an expensive lunch with a group of friends and a customised dry-fit tee. Cool! ;D

This whole week has been extremely un-joyful because of the flutter of graded essays, math test, chem test etc etc (honestly, I cant even rmb when the tests are alr). no matter, it was an eventful week which I do not want to repeat ever again again again.

EOYS ARE COMING!

I hate exam stress. :/

P.S. I received this amusing SMS from someone: "If today was World Stealing Day, what would you steal from me? And, why?" ANSWER ME! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.

P.P.S. the message was in complete sentences; I'm super surprised xp.

Hey, what's a rainbow without sunshine?

2009-08-10T07:56:00.000-07:00

"You're just a bastard, no bitch, hypocrite even when u call us one wth?if what you think im doin makes me a bitch, you are the ultimate bitch.im hypocrite? towards you all only. how you treat us is how we treat you.bitch is for you, not for me. you can call me a bastard, asshole or anything. im okay with it =]"

-credits to: Tan Chu Ye's blog, makingthehistory.bs

OK so the deal is Chuye flamed one of our platoon mates and naturally, we're all mad at him. So while thinking about the possible rebuttals, I read his blog post (only the one about flaming) and then instead of getting really mad at him, I was reminded of the times when we were still in lower secondary- the time when we all think we're making the most sense when we're really not. The flamings sounded so impulsive that I was wondering where the topic sentence of the argument was.

Before anybody gets angry and looks to the tagboard to flame me back, let's refer to the above. Out of all the paragraphs, this made least sense to me. Probably it's just my stand but if you're hypocritical, even if it's only to the person you dislike, you're still a hypocrite am I correct? Now I've heard millions of people who claim that millions more associate hypocrital with delta girls. The thing is, we cant possibly tell everyone whom we have resentment about that they are bad, mean, thick etc. We've got to be tactful cos we have faults too. So if we are (to use The Term) "hypocritical" to only to those people we dislike, are we being like Chuye is doing here or are all of us just trying to be tactful?

So you see, his argument just doesnt make sense to me.

(NOTE: AM NOT BEING SACARSTIC)

And just a side note to Chuye, you've said you were meaning hypocritical to only our dear platoon mate. So are you saying you're pretending to dislike her when you really do not, or that you do not like her but are pretending to? From what I see, you really do not like her (or even us for that matter) and you're not trying to pretend either. And that, you dont even get the meaning of hypocritical.

I'm not going to launch into a full page essay about why Chuye is wrong and we're all right. There's always a right and wrong in a situation and I'd end up with sleeplessness if I try to cancel the grey areas. Just want to say, I love Delta even if we're KNOWN to be bitchy, notorious and whatsoever. Everyone has faults and if we only try to look for those without, we'd end up really lonely.

Million times, for a million reasons.

2009-08-07T04:53:00.000-07:00

;D
this picture came way late but I like the way how we are all so different and despite the these, we're able to stay together and find something in each other that we can love.

OK today's NDP celebrations were frankly, a disappointment. Although NDP celebrations always had the usual explanations of the national anthem and pledge (the ones we always recite but never really understood the meaning), march in and speeches, there were always performances and community singing to look forward to at the end. With it, the whole boring stint becomes all worth it.

This year, other than feeling much smarter having known the meaning of our national anthem and pledge, the singing of national songs was a rather dull one, with a bad person leading the songs (since he wasnt even muttering the lyrics audibly). Although I still do not know if Band really deserved the kind of knock-down they got, it seems clear that the short speech the principal made was filled with cynicism and came with a pathetic lack of encouragements or praises.

Afterwards, we went back to class for a Singapore quiz which was interesting. It came along with straw hearts, straw stars and Seventeen magazines (I'm dying for mine to arrive!!). Seemed like a no-life loser, went home straight after NDP celebrations and started mugging. (I'm unbelievable okokokokok!!)

For the first time since history, I'm worried for a math test.

no such thing as meant to fail.

2009-08-01T05:44:00.000-07:00

was thinking about this for a few days.

I realise how different my sister and I are. She's confident and assured of herself. There are times when she thinks there are flaws in her life but no matter, she either accepts them or stay strong against it.

But me? I'm older but I think so much less of myself. Always so sure I'd fail, so sure that good things never last, so sure that I'm just talking nonsence, so sure that I make no sense, so sure that I... everyth. And when something happens, I immediately jump to a conclusion that it's bad.

the last call

2009-07-24T08:26:00.000-07:00

today's our last CCA day.

can. you. believe. it?!

no i cant. And it's hurting so much as I try to tell myself that it is over for real. I'd miss the experience very much. I love getting pumped, getting screamed at, changing into our no4 in less than 7 mins, suffocating in my no3, risking a heat stroke in no4, doing pt in no4, doing 5bx, running, cheering, abraisons. I miss being a cadet when everything is a learning process and we're talking about life in ncc like it's never going to end.

I'd never forget the times we had as partCs. There were moments so real. Even though it was physically enduring, I'd give all to have the same experiences again, the pumpings on car park grounds, the cuts and bruises from the no4 boots, the tears, the weariness turned into satisfaction, the disappointments turned into motivations, the heat, the hope, spec course, senior spec course, hqncc, freestyle nationals, west champions. I miss turning the resentment into love, into passion, into hoping that it'd never end.

Then comes the experience we remember so fresh, the day we took over as specialist, the day we waved goodbye to our cadet lives, the day we knew soon, all this was going to be over. Specialist life to me was a string I could cling on to. Once my specialist life ends, the string breaks and I'd fall away from NCC. Yes, it was tiring, it was so shocking that specialist life doesnt seem as fantastic as it looks. It was stressful, heartbreaking and yet fufilling in many ways.

It's kind of heart wrenching to know that the day I'd never forget most is tuesday. When we conducted the final last parade, we banged our loudest, shouted our commands loud and clear and tried to make as little mistakes as possible. We wanted to make this final performance the best rehearsal we ever had. Like how the previous CCA days were just practices for the last, when we had to drop all pretenses we had to each other, to the company and pour out all the true emotions we had- to display the pride and love we have for NCC.

Today, I had tried in many ways not to cry so that partBs may stand strong. Hopefully, it wouldnt be a sad departure for them. What stands unchanged is that our last CCA day has ended and there's never going to be another. Yet, I hope delta never becomes a part of our past memories, forgotten and emotionless.

Delta, I love you.

You told me to stay strong then left me wondering what went wrong.

2009-07-20T05:48:00.000-07:00

am not emo alert.

there's a physics test on Wednesday and chem prac test in a week's time. tmrw we're going to get back our chem test from the start of the term (which i think i'm going to fall way below expectations). now tell me, how am i going to look forward to tmrw?? sigh, OK Marie Digby's songs cheer me up to the max.

shall post pictures of the launch of CLing when i'm freeer. tired like mad and hoping i'd sleep by 10pm!! currently, i just feel grumpy like a bitch.

am sorry a million.

2009-07-15T07:13:00.000-07:00

it's those shitty kinds of apologies you have to make when you're sure you did something wrong but cannot pin-point what it really is. Then hoping that the person would just tell/scold/scream at you rather than keep quiet. It just makes me feel much worse.

beautiful moments

2009-07-13T05:33:00.000-07:00

have such a lovely family hehehe ;D

recently, we took a lot of pictures because of my sister's party+my brother's party+many more outings tgt so it's cool. i keep looking at how pretty those pictures are. xp

sidenote: my brother was attempting to push me back because i... did smth to him but i apparently forgot.

this reminds me of the time when we stayed home to watch tv and my brother&i were playing with cushions (i.e. whacking each other with them). then, my sister called us "monkey" hahahaha, ok am not happy about being called a monkey but the scenario was freaking funny! ;D

i love tennis and swimming to the max. although swimming can be very tiring, it's easy to lose calories in the pool (Y) i like like madz. took plenty of pictures. i love taking pictures because we can capture that instant when everybody is enjoying. in future when we took back, it's like a physical reminder that those memories did happen and probably motivate me/us to make new ones. cool much?

jolene and brenda got their LBBS presents today!! hehehe dont have pictures because i didnt bring my camera ): anyw shirleen took them. yst when i bought the presents, shirleen texted to say that brenda knew we're going to get jolene a present and i was thinking she must be really sad we forgot hers. hehehe. :)

ANYW HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDA+JOLENE!

hope y'll like your presents okok. (L)

visited the library today.

the school library does have a few really good books. :)

Celebrate today.

2009-07-09T21:43:00.000-07:00

"My father was a busy man. I was busy, too. We loved each other, talked easily and often, but in the end we were like most fathers and daughters- not curious enough about the people we call family, too comfortable in our love for each other to question what we love about one another. Too lazy to ask questions. Too busy to listen."

- Reader's Digest January 2007

it's sad when the only time families get to really introduce themselves is when they say goodbye. imagine, "Goodbye, i'm Shereen and hopefully you'd remember me." What if, alternatively, we get to know each other from the very beginning by going through the painful yet meaningful process of realising, understanding and then accepting. Wont it be much better to do that and spend the rest of the time loving each other?

Sometimees, people forget how easy it is to lose a person.

2009-07-09T06:55:00.000-07:00

credits to: unknown (whoever this belongs to, tag me and i'd credit you okok!!)

This cartoon is supposed to show consideration but the bunny looks evil...but we've all been talking about not judging people by their looks yes? Anyw that's not really my point today. School was really slack today. We officially started classes at 11.20am so you can imagine~ it's been PE (bball), history (no tch=more bball sessions), recess (not hungry+save money budget=more bball) so it's been basically bball till recess. (Y) I like like crazy heehee!!

Just completed my SS E-L homework. It was super demoralising when I saw that "refer to all sources" but it turned out okay! So to all those procrascinating, "IT'S OK ALRIGHT ;D" I would very much prefer going to school after looking at the very long list of terribly complicated E-L homework. YET, sleeping in, being able to have breakfast slowly, read and use my ipod as and when kind of does hold temptations. :D

This post is getting so boring xp.

Sentosa+AYG09

2009-07-06T03:20:00.000-07:00

weekends were so disneychannel like. they were full of sunshine, fun and picture takings. :)
went for AYG games on the 4th and 5th-the first is a basketball finals and the second is a beach vball finals.

both were really really cool; although bball had a lot more action and excitement. In my impression, Phillipines and Iran (i think??) played the best. They are freaking fast in their motions. :O

for vball there was hot sun, sandy seats and hours long breaks. so for our lunch breaks, we toured that part of sentosa and visited fort siloso. pictures speak a thousand words so here is how we spent our day! ;D

Today was a freaking awesome day.

I know I sound plain nerdy saying this but "all hail physics!"; I spent the entire day revising WEP, doing physics assessments and revising SHC+thermal physics. ;D am a 100% kanchiong spidey who's afraid to fail exams. ):

nevertheless I must admit, I spent the afternoon at queensway and got two FBT tees (shall post pictures some day when I happen to be wearing it and feel like camwhoring heh.) and a dampener. To be really frank, I dont need a dampener for my tennis racket because I dont hit hard but whatever it is, it's a tennis ball which bounces. (Y)(Y) I like!!

I love shopping like mad and can go around shops and find things I NEVER KNEW I NEEDED and decide i need them and buy them.

P.S. shit just realised eom and physics assignments are NOT YET DONE.

P.P.S. personal note to subscribe to Seventeen Mag.
P.P.P.S sorry for the spammation. I couldnt put them in the same postscript because they were about different matters xp.

note to self, note to all.

2009-07-05T20:59:00.000-07:00

hi all,

when you say something you should mean it. whether it is giving advise or making a stand, you shouldnt say yes and then mean no because it'd be a really mean thing to do. besides, what if somebody counted on your words to give them courage and assurances? wont you be cheating then?

cheers, cariokay.

spongebob stickers+joy in life.

2009-07-03T03:15:00.000-07:00

HI./been reading a few people's blogs and didnt think it was very interesting but i noticed something cool. Most of those bloggers bothered to greet their readers- "hi" "hello" "hello everybody" while those who proclaim their blogs to be better than the rest didnt have the basic courtesy. So even if my blog's not very cool, not a very good read, i'm still going to be polite. (Y)

I was really meaning to put a picture here, then start blogging about first day of school. now, it seems like eons ago. I mean, i just had a chem test and it's only the first week of school.

My brain's screwed, seriously. All i ever think about is what to do the next minute, the next hour, the next day or the next week. Or when i'm working on something, i'm thinking, "what if it failed?" "what if i didnt do it good?" when HELLO, IF YOU DONT EVER GET FOCUSED INTO DOING WHATEVER YOU'RE DOING, LIKELY CHANCES ARE YOU'D FAIL.

Overwhelmed as most part of me am, the bigger problem is, my brain has yet to register that.

If you've read till here, good but this post is probably going to be really thoughtful and thus, long. So you can stop here if it really pains you to read miniature words off a screen. Firstly, I've thought about it quite long and have read it in numerous books. Probably none has actually screamed the words but the underlying message is obvious enough. Which is, you can learn from anybody and anything (and that includes shitty people/things e.g. boring lessons) So if we really put humility in our life, I guess we can learn a lot more.

Secondly, I recalled from the Davinci exhibit that "being willing to do is not enough, you've to do it" or smth along those lines. I linked it to the fact that action speaks louder than words. We can say, plan, think, dream but it's never going to materialise if we do not step out of the bubble/comfort zone we live in and do something about it. I've wanted to learn cross stitch and knitting but today only is when i finally hooked up with resources and get down to planning a "lesson". "courage is feeling the fear but doing it anyw" so being without fear does not make you courageous, rather it makes you a failure cos you've never really lived. So from today, I'm going to be courageous. :)

Lastly, I'm going to do a photo collage in my room with many many memories. Hopefully it'd remind me of what i had and what could have been, thus motivating me to create more happy memories with my loved ones alr. I'm also going to start reading nytimes.com. NOTE: if you've plenty of time at home, THIS IS A GOOD READ. (Y)(Y)

am going to read NY TIMES and consolidate CID4+LA stuffs.

P.S. SHEREEN, RMB TO LOG ON FACEBOOK LATER!!

First times bring panic attacks

2009-06-29T07:41:00.000-07:00

The night before i was having sweaty palms, constant frowns and insonmia all because today is the first day of term 3. TRUST ME. First times to anyth gives me the above even tho i've had first days in school for forever. Afterall, i'm alr in year4 aint I? :o

First day was:

1. OK, stressful. realised there's a math test on 13th July and chem test this friday. Joy to the world~ who'd have thought this was the first day of sch?!

2. looked at developed pictures from Shermaine's party. My dear sister developed a million useless (i.e. blurred and meaningless) pictures multiple times. Now I've about 5 blurred pictures of tennis buddies, 2 pictures of nobody's face, 5 shots of replicated pictures of the same family etc. you get my gist~

3. am going to read digital fortress cos it's the coolest. (Y) although i think davinci code is a lot more informative and challenging. still, the action is more in digital fortress.

OK GOING TO READ BYEBYE EVERYBODY. :)

Thanks for the stupid times we've had together.

2009-06-27T01:07:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER! ;D

"Having a sister is like having a best friend you cant get rid of. you know that no matter what you do, they'll still be by your side."

-edited from Amy Li.

with you, i've had complaints, upsetness with god, heated arguments, occasional screamings and insensible fights for the sake of my pride. yet, no matter how those are happening and will still happen, it's from the depths of my heart when i tell you i'm happy to have you as my sister; when i tell you how fortunate to be able to confide in you, talk to you; or when i tell you, i love you.

Thanks lovelies for helping!

The girl beside my sister is very pretty right!!

Her smile is sweet, and the good thing is that, she's always smiling.(Y)

THIS PICTURE IS DARMNED FUNNY HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

plus, shirleen looks epic chio here!!

very failed picture.

the party yesterday was crazy okokok. i started preparing at 4pm and the party went on until 12.30pm. nonetheless, it was good (Y)

spent the afternoon setting up guest table, taking pictures, camwhoring, blowing balloons and going crazy hahahahhahahahha. I love balloon, they're so floaty and colourful! :D alvin and wesley look like uncles selling newspapers, no offence xp. thanks much for your helps anyw. :)

then there was food+cake+games. didnt eat any food+cake, and i didnt dare to tell my mum lest she laughs or scolds me for not eating. had no appetite okok! too much air. games were not bad. most of them were cooperative and supportive so (Y) i like i like! to add on with cute little girls/boys, good music, crazy times and floatly balloons, the party was awesome! ;D

tag replies:

Nicholas- HI OKOK. :D

Joycelin- I DIDNT! but i alr know the ending ley xp would it ruin the suspense? hahahahahha.

Bluerabbitz- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA YOU (Y)

walt disney said: keep moving forward

2009-06-25T02:02:00.000-07:00

[edited. 5.26pm]

10 things I want to do before holiday ends :)

1. get a big wallpaper to put all my pictures over the past years.

2. charge my camera so i can take millions of pictures tmrw during the party!

3. finish reading my ever-piling newspapers

4. customise a notebook as birthday present/keep it for myself

5. complete my cross stitch ASAP

6. arrange tennis meet ups for school reopen!

7. start on NYAA skills

8. start practising my guitar

9. set up a book portal

10. finish odyssey+borrow digital fortress!

11. read god of small things

school's going to start next week unless MOE decides to extend holidays;

am not dreading it as much as most people do.

holidays have been (Y). visited various museums and science centre serveral times, viewed cool exhibits, done a few CIPs, read davinci code, watched lots of movies+dvds, sweated at tennis. felt; i felt self-doubt and crummy, felt eeky and sticky all over like i'm dying for a bath, felt guilty for slacking the day away, not studying, felt imperfect. did; read inspirational quotes, recalled what it was like chionging for mye, how it felt to have fufiled my goal, did many plannings (but no actions).

usually the best come out of accidents, dont you think? the most well-planned itenary becomes not as good as what we imagined them to be, dont you think?

Are you OK?

2009-06-24T22:39:00.000-07:00

the pictures that arrived late hahahhahaha.

picnic with delta!

my hair was curling in a very horrible manner. :/

HI. HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA.

joycelin looks too normal to be commented about!

eeyer come to think of it, i've never shopped, thrashed out, had crazy sad times with you. we're the most normal combi. :) maybe next time we can do CIP together? hahaha!

we took like damn a lot of pictures because i keep looking screwed but shuwei looks in same in all pictures!

anyw you are very funny+very cute okay! stop thinking the worst of yourself. :) maybe next time when we go shopping, you'd be the one making me buy smth instead of the other way round hahhahahhahaha.

qiaowei uh thinks she looks cute here.

deluded little girl, hahahahhah thanks for being there everytime i feel down or when i just wna talk. you've been an amazing friend cum joke. I (L) you ok! if you ever need me, i'll be here ok! (a phone call away, an email away etc you get my gist hahahaha) am still thinking about attending clt course, but i know if i do, you'd be there yes? :) im'ma crazy buddy 1314.

valerie looks freaking cute here!!

we've had our bitch fights+gossip sessions+thrash outs but no matter what, I (L) you. rmb the fun fun thailand trip, horribly long yet very funny busrides, scary hotels (ok, maybe only scary to me), thailand flies, oily breakfast and crazy shoppings! we must do it again okokok. :D

Shirleen+Shereen=twins. (aiyo I lose out)

hahahhahahahha just kidding!

this picture is too dark, we both look camouflaged. :/ you've been an awesome friend! although we had been bitchy about each other before, but what's friendship without bitchfights? rmb the tiring inspire cip, ncc cip, ranting sessions, thrash out sessions in thailand, thailand flies+bus conductor picture!

science centre trip with family v v long time ago.

i think this has a slight resemblance to smth. :/

it looks darmned scary.

amusing yes no? hahahhahahahhahaha.

Museums with Qiaowei and Shirleen. :)

Macdonalds on the left, esplanade on the right.

mmm never seem to get directions right xp

Behind is an exhibit with a man lying on the ground with a chain around his neck, like a dog.

I dont really get the story behind. The gist is, this person+his dog are so close that they fuse as one. (???)

cute graffiti at the back. There were little stick figures!
the camera in the foreground is shirleen's coughcoughcough. :)

playground for kids :O

we took most pictures at SAM heheh at ACM, the Kangxi exhibit was quiet and solemn so we couldnt possibly be going crazy with snapshots and flashes yes? hahahh. I saw many famous exhibits during the holidays, i.e. Davinci the Genius, Kangxi Emperor, The Unguarded Moment. It was cool, although to be very frank, I dont get the expressions in SAM.

zeek, okok cant wait for school to reopen and for a new set of activities to arrive.

NYAA+CID4 :)

you mean the world

2009-06-24T09:09:00.001-07:00

i'm never good with words. I cant create the most sentimental paragraph to express the heart-felt emotions.

Delta, you've meant the world to me and you always will. You create the real feelings- love, hate, sadness, sorrow, happiness, craziness etc.

I'm afraid that after we step down, we're going to walk past each other like we've never mattered to each other, like we're never a big part of each other's life. I'm afraid we'd become mere hell0-bye friends.

I feel fortunate to have been able to know you girls. I hope that after we step down, our love would go on, as strong and never forgotten.

what if everybody is a miracle to cover up for my flaws?

2009-06-22T08:17:00.000-07:00

schools are starting. i havent finished a million holiday homework. i'm supposed to be asleep or else i'd be grumpy and frustrated tomorrow. i'm sad i'm going to rod. there's so many things that i'm unhappy about. of course, i can easily change them by doing something logical and meaningful instead of whining at this post. however, once in a while, it feels good to not be in control- to let things come and overwhelm you.

i'm sitting here feeling a damp heart. it's not being teenage moody. it's the feeling below someone else. maybe it's jealousy? i feel inferior. i'm not as pretty, as smart, as sociable, as confident, as funny, as... amazing in every single way. when people look at you, then at me, what do they think? that you must be the miracle to cover up for such a loser i am?

it's suffocating to have these emotions heaped up in me. everybody thinks it's not like me, it's not shereen, it shouldnt be so. maybe you've never known the me when i display my emotions, honest and frank, right in your face. maybe you've never known that i love fairytale endings; you've never known that i love art; maybe you've never known that i yearn for people to love me for who i am, when i'm stripped down to the very end, raw.

i'm just trying to tell the world out there, whoever's reading, that everybody (no matter how pretty, how smart, how sociable, how confident, how funny etc you are) needs encouragement. they need to know that someone sees the good they're doing. they need love.

romeo, I want to be your juliet.

2009-06-17T07:14:00.000-07:00

museums=a lot of unneccessary walking+fun+crazy photoshoots. :) we took the above at PhotoID. went out with qiaowei and shirleen today. although i was melting under the sweltering heat, it turned out funny! we went to the ACM, kangxi exhibit (in acm) and SAM. SAM was cool except that I couldnt understand how the painting relates to "difficulties of women" ?! still, cool.

tmrw is temple visit+library+movies+meeting with cousins! am looking forward to it; joy to the world. ;D will update with more pictures when I'm in the mood. :)

Feeling like a rotten apple. (N)

2009-06-15T02:18:00.000-07:00

feeling like a rotten apple. ):
the below is my time schedule for today and I cant figure out which part tells me I've been slacking.
still, i feel like a rotten apple. must be the weather.

8.30am: visited the doctor because of a rash outbreak
9.30am: read newspapers
11am: started on math
12noon: lunch
12.30pm: read blogs+msn chats
1pm: math ace learning assignment
3pm: looked up gv+bookstork.lj
3.45pm: new radio; helped set up; found out it worked; went crazy
4pm: math differentiation+integration
5.20pm: blogging+nearly dead

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going for movies+roadshow+museums; cant wait!!

Your smile catches my breath.

2009-06-13T09:11:00.000-07:00

say it again for me.

it's like the whole world stops to listen.

I just wrote in my diary so this blog post is going to be random, spammed with nonsensical stuffs and sleepy. currently waiting for my printer to finish printing all my chinese holiday homework. :O

anyw Marie Digby is a lovely singer+writer. Her songs are resounding with emotions. Every single part of her lyrics seem to convery a message. Certain parts of her lyrics made me think of the last time someone said smth that brings everyth to a standstill, letting me swallow within the meaning of the words and dives deep into my heart. If I were to randomly think of one now, it's difficult so hahahahhahaahahahaha leave it to another day.

Heartbeat concert was (Y) the dances were amazing. There are a whole array of them, although there are a few that were repeated. Generally, the venue, procedure, MCs, performances etc were awesome!:D Nearly the entire 4H were there and everybody looks like a superstar ok. I was wearing simple jeans shorts, sailor tanktop, white overcoat and my school bag. To be fair, my school bag matches my outfit ok! And everybody else was wearing heels, dresses, carrying handbags, miniskirts, etc etc etc superstar!!! :O

ok need to sleep.

Inspire CIP tmrw.

kind of dreading.

NCC-LAKESIDE FSC CIP@Macritche

2009-06-07T06:15:00.000-07:00

Our first ever DELTA CIP. : )))))

It's with lakeside FSC. The kids were typically kids- difficult to manage, restless, cute and still very difficult to manage.

The only game they are ever interested in is catching, or any other games related to catching. e.g. freeze and melt, virus etc etc.

It's kind of funny. hahahahah I alr forgot the names of these days until the point when I heard them ask for it and I recall how popular these games are.

Motherly CIP leader.
it's amazing! this CIP brings out the motherly, loving, caring, doting etc sides of NCC GUYS+GIRLS you've never seen before!!

Valerie.

Feei.

I love your bag. it's darmned chio+ex.

I remember shirleen said smth about feei being expensive, what with the River Island jeans, branded bag and high human value. HAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHA.

Liqin.

OK LIQIN'S DIFFERENT. She's alr our delta mama.

HI MAMA~

Had a loads of fun with Delta. : ))))

The biggest hiccup is that majority of the games- perhaps all, were too "disciplined" for the kids. :/ OK, MUST ORGANISE BETTER GAMES NEXT TIME.

P.S. the pics came late because I'm very lazy.

Shit happens (all at one time)

2009-05-29T04:52:00.000-07:00

Today. Played soccer. Watched a chinese video during Lang arts. Did a self-made chem experiement. Had freestyle rehearsals under the burning sun. School closes at 5pm. Tmrw. 7.15am no4 school. Open house cum CCA for 5 hours. Physics tuition. Predictably tired.

Today is just not a good day. I just got yelled at by my mother for smth that I could do nothing about. I'm extremely sad that Delta is stepping down. I wish I could stop judging whatever I hear/see/do and start to live.

"You v cute leh"

2009-05-27T00:33:00.001-07:00

Cross country 09.
Champion: Minotaur.

Today was our school's cross country. Competitive runners ran 3.5km. It seems shorter than I thought, all thanks to morning runs for Hillary Challenge and the worries I had in the morning. I improved from 80+ to 50+ in position. Yay, hahahahahahahahhahahahahha.

I love you, delta.

2009-05-27T00:14:00.000-07:00

Charlie champions, my champions.

Sexyalpha, burntbravo, charliecannibals, dopeydeltas. nonsensical names, indeed. But to me, it has created my sense of belonging to this platoon; not just any partabcd, we're that part a, that part b, that part c, that part d.

In one more act, we're stepping down. In other words, we're going to say good bye. Goodbye to the sweat, blood and tears of being cadets. Goodbye to the scoldings we use to get. Goodbye to the togetherness. Goodbye to each other. Goodbye to NCC. What I'm afraid of, is how much of these will remain in our hearts, in our memories?

I'm always told to move forward. Whenever something untoward, happen to me, others tell me to let it go, leave it behind and create new memories. Now, my heart is filled with fear- fear of forgetting. I dont want these beautiful memories to be displaced by others. I dont want to leave delta girls. They are my treasure, my lifeline, my memories. I cant imagine a school life without them. I really cant.

What can I do to ease this heartache?

My treasure, my lifeline, my motivation.

2009-05-25T05:46:00.000-07:00

This is a record-breaking mass Taiji exercise, with more than 400 participants.

That's just one of the many cool stuffs that went on during and at the CE Games Day 2009. :) It was held at ITE College East. The campus is huge and beautiful. It has a large stadium (with comfortable seats in good working condition), a large quadrant that can spurt water (i think), and an air conditioned resting room. our school just pales in comparison doesnt it?!

I played fencing. Which coughcoughcough somebody poked me in the abdomen which cough hurts. That's not the point. Fencing is cool. It has cool gears, varying sword-shapes, etc etc except that I will never comprehend how anyone finds passion hiding under a suffocating helmet. hey i tried ok. I just prefer tennis, bball, bmt and swiming. :)
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Today was a funny funny day. We got back our chinese paper 1, which i passed with all thanks to the holy one up there, finished watching Napola, had health check up, spent the entire day reading a chinese book. It weird enough that I passed my chinese paper 1. hyperventilates yay. I'm want a GPA of 3.0 this term. I'm not asking for 3.5 or 3.1 or 3.2 or whatever, it's just 3.0! (A)

My after-MYE days are filled with hillary challenge training, mino mascot making, freestyle rehearsals and bballs. Bball sessions are damn shuang okok. Especially when you play until you're exhausted, sweaty and breathless. (ignores the fact that I cant shoot, I cant dribble and my reaction is slow) hey i tried ok. :)

hahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahh this post is getting so monotonous. I'm leaving to drown in my ipod, doing math. exciting to the max sia. (nerd face)

the heartache you feel is just your brain's way of telling you that hey dont let go, that person matters.

2009-05-21T05:46:00.000-07:00

"Old pain doesnt completely die. Time may soothe it, stroke over it, until it looks like it has healed, but it never dies properly. It stays with you, living in the cracks of your soul, waiting for the moment when you feel true pain. Other people may hurt me several times over the years. I've cried, I've ached, I've grieved with varying degrees of intensity. And I'd always known, that it only hurt enough to leave a scar if that person mattered." -Goodnight Beautiful, Dorothy Koomson

It's true that the many times we flame a person on our blogs, rant about that person, bitch about that person, get angry, or upset, or unhappy about the person's misdeeds, it's really because we care about that person. To put it simply, we're interested. Otherwise, we would naturally tune into the indifference mood.

When we touch our hearts and for once, be completely honest with our emotions, we'd know that the heartache you feel is just your brain's way of telling you that hey, dont let go, that person matters. More often than not, the person matters more than you think.

We often give in to impulsive decisions and neglect the fact that we've spent many times and been through many experiences with him/her.

Embarassing is my second name and grumpy is my third.

2009-05-20T07:53:00.000-07:00

look at cute guy+pretty girl=omgz gasp hyperventilates. (focus back on cute guy) he's really my main point. Ok, Kimbum is cute but he's not as cute/shuai/sweet as mr cute guy okokok i swear on my chinese grade that mr cute guy is worthy of your worship. hahahahahahahahahhaha (A)

I'm so bored of blogging today. I (L) Blogging! Today is just too boring but i'm blogging for the sake of blogging. Hist pawns all because I learnt that there's not going to be lessons and lesson times will be nothing but movies+stuffs we want to do (aka movies)! anyw check out this funny convo.

Shereen says:
cos RVFSD team won 3rd in the nationals so we get to perform in ncc day
yupyup.
Leong John Silvers says:
ooooic...
Shereen says:
you should sound more excited lo
like "YAY RV'S GOING TO PERFORM"
Leong John Silvers says:
OOOOO YEA U GUYS PERFORMING FOR NCC DAY OMG!!!!!! FRIKKIN AWESOME!!!
Shereen says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Leong John Silvers says:
haha i live to please ma'am:D
Shereen says:
hahahahahahahahhahahahahah wlao
your ego damn small siax
Leong John Silvers says:
hahahaha what makes you say that???

okok i shall mediate for the night. survive thurs timetable+4rounds+long day. pray for weekends. excite over tennis.

P.S. I (L) SATURDAYS!

it's amazing how i managed to listen to shuffles at ngiht and know it's nothing to be afraid of :)

2009-05-18T09:12:00.000-07:00

above credits to http://www.gv.com.sg/

I watched 17again and angels&demons in a row today! and a few days ago, when exams just ended (which alr seems like a long time ago), i watched X-men with 4H. :O I have never watched so many movie teebits in this considerably short period of time. ok, for most of X-men and Angels&Demons I was closing my eyes/behind my bag/behind someone's back, but still, i got the gist of the story. 17 again was the coolest; with the cliche "zac effron is so hot" comments. hahahahhahahahaha.

I've finished the proposed timeline with Ziqi; finished translating the entire survey for parents into Chinese which Ximeng was supposed to do, coughcoughcough somebody must have forgotten hahahahhahahahahahhaha. On the brighter side, I managed to improve my Chinese. Really ok! :) So I'm going into the habit of sleeping at unearthly hours.

It still never fails to amaze me how i can fill my week before i even end the week before that?! Wed: Fsd rehearsals Thurs: Tennis with Rebecca, Kah Ghi, Muxin, Yongyu. Fri: CCA+Hillary challenge trng=(Y) Today was really funny cos someone proclaimed of protecting me from ghosts that appear. I didnt tell that person but I found it really cute. me=(A)

okok I shall go and sleep asap.

havent been blogging+reading blogs since 14th May, I pawn. :)

Goodnight, beautiful.

2009-05-14T01:32:00.000-07:00

There's CCA tmrw. PartBs please bring no4, 2.40pm pt kit. hahahahahahahahahah this is redundant because on typing this i know i that i still have to SMS them. I need to finish NCC CIP proposal by next friday. I need to finish CID4 timeline and plan a next meeting by next tuesday. I want to read Dorothy Koomson's Goodnight, Beautiful (which I'm told is a sad story). I want to read the John Sculley's book.

My rational brain is telling me to stop wasting time on blogging. My rational brain is a lot like my Dad- strictly no MSN, no SMS, no emails, no blogging, do math. period. While my irrational brain is a lot like the famous bloggers who adore shopping, adore hanging out, adore movies, adore more shoppping. Come to think of it really hard, these bloggers do nothing but shopping and hanging out. It's quite a waste of time really. At least my irrational brain includes reading, organising, writing in my yellow book, IPOD, PSP and tennis.

Now my rational brain is going to ally with my mother and tell me to stop blogging. okok!!

I shall leave after typing about today. Today was a really emotional day. I was math :) history :O chem -.- chinese !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ): then i spent the rest of my day panicking. if i fail my chinese, i'm going to bury myself under my books+IPOD+PSP. I'm not even going to play tennis!

Obviously, my irrational brain is talking.
byebye.

Delta, alert!

2009-05-12T03:07:00.000-07:00

HEY DELTA, ANYONE INTERESTED?!

I AM NUMBER 1

A children's musical drama about a boy who wins a story-telling competition but is still unhappy. On the other hand, a charming girl loses the competitionbut is happy.

By Arts Theatres Of Singapore. In Mandarin.

Where: Victoria Theatre
MRT: Raffles Place
When: Next Friday, 11am and 3pm.
May 16, 3pm and 8pm.
May 17, 3pm.

Admission: $18-$24
Tel: 6348-5555

Hey you, wake up.

2009-05-12T02:08:00.000-07:00

Twitter, facebook, skype.. so many people are voicing their opinions about these social networking. I've been wondering the advantages and disadvantages of the internet. It's difficult to come up with a plausible conclusion. After reading several newspaper articles, I tentatively decide that the internet has more good than bad.

Disclaimer: I have no intentions of offending anyone who is conservative about opinions which are being voiced publicly.

To begin, I believe there are infinite wonders of the internet. Based on personal deduction, everybody reading this probably thinks the internet is awesome. But for those few who are still doubtful about the internet's ability, here.

Firstly, the quickness of the internet allows people to keep in touch with their friends, distant relatives or family members who are overseas. As long as there is an internet access, webcams, instant messaging, emails, social networking devices and such are avaiable. From daily routines to massive breakthroughs, internet users can read the personal reflections of the person. Personally, it's been exceptionally useful for reinstating relationships with friends that i've neglected or forgotten over the past few years, namely my primary school friends.

Secondly, it gives people breathing space. For example, emails can be sent within seconds. Yet, the receiver can choose to read it at that instant or leave it for a later time, when it is more convenient. This allows people to calm down and think through before replying. This is especially useful when both parties have just been involved in a heated argument. In addition, it allows people to construct a proper message before initiating a conversation or sending an email. Although skeptics argue that emails are a form of informality, it allows people to take time in drafting their message so that the most calm, most prepared image of the sender can be portrayed in the carefully chosen words. The thing about the internet is that it isnt as intimidating as meeting a person you've just yelled at or answering a particularly condescending superior.

Thirdly, the internet is international. This makes it amazing. Informations from all over the world can be attained with a click of the internet. Cliche as it may sound; how often was the internet helpful in getting information? (Note: helpful in the sense of availability, convenience and usefulness) How many webpages of international organisations can be found with Google and Yahoo? How many of us have used the internet to get official statistics for our Language Arts Essay?

Obviously, I dont see what's wrong with tagging online and telling everybody what you're doing every single minute of your life. This wouldnt be possible some decades ago and the efficiency technology allows people to update their status anytime, anywhere. It calls for a celebration. It's an achievement isnt it? To me, the availability of the internet doesnt only rob people of their privacy, it also moulds us into unappreciative beings. We're able to attain a key source of information within seconds and instead of saying "hey, thank god", we frown over at how the internet has made us cyber savvy and on the contrary, loosing the habit of reading and writing. Then again, is it your parents' fault that you dont know how to cook? Is it your parents' fault that you're failing due to the overuse of the internet and the corresponding neglience on your studies? Many a times, we have a choice-to blame or not to blame. Some people choose to blame everything in the world but themselves for a flaw in their lives, some people choose to blame themselves, harp on their mistakes and kill their self esteem, while others choose to look into solving the problem. If you think using the internet has lessened the visits to the library, do something.

I've realised that the above benefits the internet brings can be countered with the fact that your informations or the informations you need are as available to you as other people. I'm not unaware of the presense of terrorist personalised webpages, internet pornography or email scams. Yet, I must say, the internet does not invade people's privacy. Frankly, it allows people to do so but if people dont do it, there will be no issue. The internet is fast and quick. So fast, so quick that some people have extra time to spare and they use it by hacking accounts and doing indecent stuffs (like those above and more).

This is further severed by the possibility of remaining anonymous on the internet. Like I said, the best discipline is self discipline. Now, because of the lack of self discipline, laws and rules are enforced to ensure the basic discipline of the society or a school or an organisation. So, the freedom people are getting now makes them forget discipline, forget righteousness, forget moral values, forget the basic respect they should have for fellow internet users. The internet is undeniably a dangerous threshold to pass.

Yet, with careful usage, it becomes a convenient form of communication and a great time saver. So, what's wrong with the internet? Nothing. It's a genius invention.

Sunday side-ups

2009-05-02T19:20:00.000-07:00

just spent 20mins reading various people's blogs. mmmm, most of them reminded me of the upcoming MYE which is a really stressful thought.

everybody's in the mugging mood. :O

if you happen to be reading this, GLHF FOR MYE!! dont give up now and regret later. i swear that in no time, it'd be over! 8D

Random facts of Sunday:

1. Tammy is a really interesting blogger. She has a life, a very interesting one. I'm impressed by the way she can make herself look good. She has cool clothings and up-to-date fashion but she deosnt seem to go wild every one. instead, she selects those that make her look good. Like Leanne, like Desiree, like Melody... omgz, where do they get all their moolahs?!?

2. I'm having baked rice today agn. hahahhahahahahahha be very jealous Brenda. :) heehee, which reminds me of the increased frequency of baked rice i'm having. frankly, i agree i'm a spoilt pampered girl.

3. I've cultivated the habit of waking up at 7am everyday and sleeping by 10.30pm everyday. i pwn everybody. ;D besides that, i'm reading the papers daily. I've read The Straits Times today and the Lifestyle section has an article about Singaporean's self esteem. I think it encourages us all to put aside the stereotypes we have of our society and think a little deeper into the truth we face but are reluctant to admit.

4. I have been having 3 hours phy lessons but am not very beat after that. late sleepers, y'll should consider sleeping early too!

enough random facts.

havent touched history.

say bye to mugger! :)

The opposite of love is indifference.

2009-04-28T07:20:00.000-07:00

week's been crazy. all i ever rmb is mugging day in day out and getting into bed by 10.30pm. then waking up for another round of the vicious cycle. i never rmb how much i've studied, or recalled what i'm ready for. all i know is that, if i dont slog myself out, i will feel sorry for myself after MYE.

3 days of no school. 2 weeks of hardcore mugging.

when i say hardcore, i mean hardcore. So, i'm no longer going to stalk desiree, leanne, melody or tammy on their blogs from now till 13th may. :)

this blog will only be for ranting=destressing.

i swear in the name of MYE.

recently read this quote from Reader's Digest.

the gist goes like this:

when there's nothing else to say to you, no more scoldings, no more comments, no more rants, no more concern, that's when the person truly forgets your presence.

your existence is no longer required by that person, nor acknowledged. that's when, that person does not love you anymore.

the opposite of love is indifference. when i still hate you, i still care for you. To you, it's beyond hate. i do not care whether you wave to me when you see me in school; i do not care if you find the guys to bitch about us; i do not care if you ever choose to join us again.

To me, you will never belong to us, ever again.

there's mugging session with physics tuition gang tmrw. XOXO.

9am-7pm (Y)

I challenge you to make your life a masterpiece.

2009-04-21T07:02:00.000-07:00

"I challenge you to make your life a masterpiece. I challenge you to join the ranks of those people who live what they teach, who walk their talk."

-Anthony Robbins

a gpa of 3.1 is seriously difficult. i need a B3 in all subj. so far, i'm far from B3 in history, language arts and chinese. even tho my sciences are up to standard, i cant hit a gpa of 3 with those grades in my humanities. sucker pile of shit. grrrr :/

my forehead of throbbing this afternoon, needed an overdose of panadol but ended up with reading my chinese novel+reader's digest!! no studying=no stress=no headaches. ftw~! to make myself feel better, i did mugging of chem for one hours plus. :)

You.

~wonderful~ You.

need to bloody reconsider your attitude.

1. even tho you're no longer directly involved with our activities, it is v irresponsible of you to make a mess out of things and then leave the rubbish behind for me to handle.

2. there is no way i, or any of us, will be jealous of you because to be really frank, there's nothing about you to be jealous about. we've got each other, and after today, you'd have nothing.

So, at the end of the day, you were the one who choose to walk away, to go the guys, to go to the abyss of people who dnt really bother about you aft today.

i pity you, sometimes.

I surrender to the strawberry icecream.

2009-04-17T06:31:00.000-07:00

YAY I FOUND MY CAM'S CHARGER!

aft 123456789 years of procrascinating

&in my cam's mem card, i found these. :)

it's found science centre.

mmmmmm, supposed to be smth... hahahahhaha!
left, my dad. right, me.
only my dad will do this with me, seriously. :D

I LOVE YOU DADDY!!

below are FSD REHEARSALS pics. i think there are from semi finals. heehee.

V HILARIOUS!!

HAHAHHAHA

it'd be cool if we were performing with music or when we're actually doing the action itself.

but when we take a snapshot of it, coughcough HAHAHAH

look at this!
the decolourisation makes us look like zemogods floating in midspace.
(it's school, really)

YAY FSD.

there was another picture where peijia looks exceptionally delighted with smth. that picture was hilarious but since i'm (A) i'll not post it. :)
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school today came along with fighting to stay awake, listening to music, doing math, having too many breaks, reading chinese novel, bitch fights and sleeping. i was dawned with the devastating realisation that mye is approximately 2 weeks away. this comes along with the known that we're tested ALL topics for physics. i want to be an ostrich, dig a hole, and live there.

anyw now i need to chiong NCC CIP proposal+CEP reading up. ): fridays are grumpy days. this is so weird. fridays are usually happy days when you can sleep late without the worry that you'd have to wake up at 6am in the morning and prep for a day of informations. BUT NOOOO~ for me, i'll leave all the projs, proposals, not-tested-for assignments till friday lest i get distracted by then on normal weekdays. as a side effect, i get overwhelmed and grumpy on friday.

tmrw's going to be a hiong day. i like! 9am-2pm is for CEP seminar. 2.30pm-4.30pm is for MLC physics tuition. 5.30pm-9.30pm is for Scout's campfire (i hope!) that means i have no time to study tmrw, good game.

kkkkkk gtg mug+finish proposal+prepare for tmrw+find time to sleep. :D

Goofy's the new cool

2009-04-15T05:24:00.000-07:00

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interested buyers please MSN me at shereen_1093@hotmail.com

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Project Vibrant Colours 2.

view her blogpost for more details!

spent 40mins doing this! (look below)

i think this shirt is cool hahahahahhahahhaha but i'm never going to be seen in this ._.

with this design, i'm really wondering what the front will look like. (gasp!)

i took the above picture from http://www.seaofshoes.com/

below is the blogger.

in some pictures, she looks very very very pretty. trust me.

i like the skirt zomgz. it's rumpled and that makes the skirt looks natural.

it is pleasantly messy and totally gives the girl-next-doorsy kind of look.
love the top.
she has awesome hair; so, i posted two pictures of the same outfit. hahahahha.

here! this one makes her look like a complete angel. especially so with the green background and woody chairs. P.S. I love woody chairs! they make me relaxed~

the blogger has a double chin. can you believe it?!?! it isnt obvious.

below are quirky outfits from fashionistas all around the world! :D

taken from http://www.facehunt.org/

she looks cute yes? :)

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH, I just find this funny.

she looks like a Seventeen model to me, esp ones modelling for casual attire.

sidenote: fashion magazines offer ridiculously high prices under scrimp-and-saves sections. :/ there was once Seventeen's May 2009 issue suggested a $404 skirt. (it wasnt in the save section; it was a skirt worth splunging on) still, $404 for a skirt is beyond expensive and not affordable to me. heh.

maybe when i grow older and have a full income, i'd be able to spend widely on clothes, accessories and lifestyle. however, chances are, i will keep them into my bank until it's fat (hopefully, it's before i become a retiree) before i bring myself to do things i enjoy, which means travelling around the world and trying out thai food. yay to yummy food! :D

i was falling asleep during physics tuition today. it's the first time since months ago that i was shutting my eyes. oh no! i need sleep, major. i should be starting on my chem now so i can sleep by 10.30pm 8D

hahahahahhhaahahaah omgz, i sound like a crazy mugger (which i probably am!) but that's going to be till 13th may only. after that, i'm as free as a bird teeheehee. now, i need to focus on hateful MYE revision, trng for hilary challenge and CEP seminar storycover!

SHEREEN GLHF~~

Run the headlights

2009-04-13T10:05:00.000-07:00

"run the headlights, i need directions."

4H2, GPA3.1, NO MORE Cs;

GLHF.

thailand flies and nighttime shopping~ found this picture in my folder. (must have ripped it off somewhere. p.s. my pictures dont usually have borders.) it had an interesting name "thailand girls" which reminds me of protitutes, uneducated girls... you get me yes. it's just an unsupported stereotype on my part but the picture itself brings back memories of thailand trip 08 heeheehee.

i'm on a save-money rampage! :)

i want an ipod touch. Shirleen and Valerie pointed out today that by the time I've saved enough, Ipod touch will probably be out of fashion (&I wont want it as badly as the new gadget that'd replace it) and it'd all be pointless.

know what, good point but there'd be more things i want (maybe a polaraid, new hoodie etc) so saving money is never a bad thing. heehee, besides i need mooney for a june holiday to-do-list. what i know is, i'd never go on a shopping spree cos: 1. my mum will kill me. 2. it's a pleasant way of wasting money.

my dad just came into my room for today's newspapers, reminded me of the unearthly hour and pretended to be angry.

bird (aka qiaowei) just said bye to me on MSN.

time check, 1.19am.

it's definitely time to sleep.

Remind me again how childhood is spelt.

2009-04-11T18:52:00.000-07:00

time check: 10.03am

current status: measuring my life in 10 minutes blocks and current 10.00pm-10.10pm is dedicated to updating myself with friends. (includ. blogging)

am officially going to convert my blog to a blogger one. wordpress has been ridiculous. it hasnt allowed me to upload pictures since pulau semakau trip. :/ although blogger has it's disadvantages compared with wordpress, i still prefer a publisher that allows me to upload pictures.

FSD FINALS

PART BCD.

freestyle tells you that no matter which part you're in, we're still from NCC. even though our ranks are different, our job scopes are different, we're not that different after all.

FSD girls with many big people.

heh, i posted this picture just as a reminder what we've gone through.
O.O AM GOING TO MISS FSD LIKE CRAZY 1314.

Pulau Semaukau trip
with 4H, 4G, 4I.

obviously, i'm just going to have pictures of 4H, sunshine buddies!!

on occassions we all feel slightly deranged, in need of times like these to go crazy and be free of school stress.

(windblown) 4H united.

teeheehee, dont you think we look like subshine buddies?! take away the uniform and you'd get a group of village kids. does education makes us very different from those who didnt undergo education? mm.

this weekend has been amazing, as usual. it never fails to awe me when i remember how special life is. life is not all about school yo.

cool reads:
http://www.ohsofickle.blogspot.com/
TAMMY'S BLOG
i think she's really really cool. she has her own shop since 15 years old. (i got that off Seventeen) she's currently 17, if i'm not wrong and she has two outlets alr. am going to visit her outlet during the hols, anybody interested? :)

http://www.insertsname.livejournal.com/
LEANNE'S BLOG
i think her life is really down to earth, comparing with a handful of dumb blondes. :/ she has a strong r/s with her family, with her bf and her friends. &she has wonderful clothes. just that they are so costly, i've no idea how she affords them. mm, maybe it's just because i cant hahahahahhaha.

http://www.bluerabbitz.blogspot.com/
SHIRLEEN'S BLOG
she inherently believes her blog is a bore but it's actually extremely funny. (it's rather strange for a friend to publicise her friend's blog but still, it's a cool read.) she finds really humourous slogan pictures to post on her pictures. i like!!

frankly, their blogs motivate me to live a more interesting life. now it's just studying, CID4 S-L, journalism club, mugging sessions and zlink. So, i've came up with a to-do-list for the holidays, yay! i know mye (mid year exams) is not over yet but who says one shouldnt plan early? it's always good to be foresighted yes? :)

to-do-list:
1. learn how to make handphone pouches, pencil cases and brooches!
2. learn how to bake cornflakes cookies
3. visit popeye's restaurant
4. visit sinema, old school
5. watch confessions of a shopaholic, 17again and harry potter&the half blood prince
6. visit mindcafe
7. disco outing @?
8. picnic with delta
9. NCC-MCYS camp
10. upload new PSP games
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.
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(to be continued)

hahahahhahaa, when i say to be continued, it's REALLY going to be to continued.

anyw, i'm going to make sure i do some studying today, or else my 4H2 will disappear like the wind~~

goodbye http://www.littlekittens.wordpress.com/ and hello http://www.cariokay.blogspot.com/

friends, relink okay!!!